I will start with a little about myself. I am 25, and a mom. I am of mostly Irish descent, as a third generation American. I have a fiance who is supportive and does not doubt me, even though often I am the only one who knows what is going on and there's no way to prove I'm not making it up (I don't say most of what I think, especially if it passes through my head a fleeting and seeminly insignificant thought - i.e. a movie or a song, or someone being somewhere, or a vision of passing a specific tree, etc.)
I've had "experiences" since I was a child, but back then it was mostly in the form of "deja-vu", "vibes" from people and places (still get the deja-vu and vibes), and experiences that my family had living in a house we believed to be haunted. During my teenage years I was introduced to Tarot cards, and would do readings for my friends. It was an attraction that for me was hard to fight. Also during my teenage years, my experiences formed into dreams. I should mention that I don't often remember my dreams, and it's come to a point that anytime I have a dream and it's vivid and very detailed, I get scared. I mostly do not want to remember what I've dreamed about. My dreams were sometimes of events that were happening as I dreamed. (One time an event as significant as a fire I dreamed about watching from a 3rd story balcony of a friend's home, where I happened to be sleeping on the same night in the back bedroom. The view of the flames in the sky so vivid. I could see the smoke billowing into the sky. I woke up the next morning to find out that there was a fire in the same neighborhood I dreamed of, and that as I slept through it in the back of the house, everyone who was sleeping in bedrooms closer to the front had awoken and watched from the front balcony, just as I envisioned.) More recently, I had a dream about my brother being in a terrible fight with lots of screaming, arguing, and some violence, but could not detail who else was involved, I could just sense the emotions and the actions of the environment. I dreamed he packed a duffel bag, and I saw him and was with him in front of our childhood home, which is across the street from his best friend's home. He was angry. He asked me to hold his duffel bag, and told me he would be back. My father (who is deceased) pulled up in his truck and I walked around to speak with him through the driver's side window. He wanted my brother's bag, and he wanted my brother to go with him. I don't remember the specific conversation, or even words, I just remember knowing that's what he wanted. It wasn't menacing, almost like he wanted to save him from the anger or something. I remember feeling like I was telling him that it wasn't necessary. But somehow he ended up with the duffel bag. My brother came back and our dad tried to get him to go with him in the truck. My brother freaked out , became enraged and refused to go. He wanted his bag back, which he got, and they both left, my father driving in one direction, my brother walking in the other.
I woke up in the middle of the night very concerned. The next morning I started to call my brother. I couldn't get through to him even by calling his friends. I finally called our mom, and asked if she'd heard from him - she had not. I told her my dream, and she became concerned as well, as she has claimed to have a dreams as a young woman that were very vivid and had often, to some degree, come to fruition. A couple of hours later she phoned me back to let me know she had heard from my brother. During the night, he and his girlfriend of a few months got in a terrible fight. Lots of yelling, and she was being violent towards him. He packed his bag and left their apartment, and the relationship, immediately. It turns out the girlfriend was his best friend's cousin, which ties in his best friend's house, but the only tie in I can think of with my dad is that he was what made me have the dream...his way of letting me know my brother needed me? I don't know. It probably all sounds crazy (it certainly feels crazy)! But it's true.
Lots of less significant things - like thinking of a movie I haven't seen or heard about in a long time and a few days later it's on TV, and just generally "knowing" things about situations, or little things that will happen. I also get sensations a lot - ringing ears, sudden intense head and body aches or feeling of sickness, chills, my feet and hands fall asleep/feel tingly, feeling of being watched (feel this almost constantly and have since I was a kid). I sometimes think I see things, but when I look back nothing is there, or the same things with sound. Some objects seem to emit emotion to me, sometimes so intense I don't just sense the emotion, but I FEEL it. I sometimes become angry or sad suddenly, for no reason. I've also struggled with varying degress of anxiety since puberty.
I don't feel like I have control over any of it, and I often overlook things, only seeing the connection in hindsight. But I certainly feel like it's real. It doesn't feel like my imagination.
If anyone reading this knows of a direction I can turn to for guidance it would be greatly appreciated. How do I find out what this is and how to control it? Is there anyone who can tell me surely what this is (could a psychic or a medium tell from being around me)?
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